So O.K. here is the run down of how things played out the night Eli was born. Some moments were great, while others scared me to death. Mind you I am a big chicken when it comes to scary things. ((:
After Dan and I watched a really lame movie we were sitting there talking. All of a sudden I felt a pop. Then a small gush of water. So we called the hospital and told them, I think my water broke at 10:45. Oh they said, Come on in. Sounds like your water truly did break but we want to make sure you didn't just pp on yourself. Ha! Great! My bladder is going now Just my luck.
You see I was in there the night before because I had called the doctor to tell them about my spotting. I was told it was normal by the OBGYN in my visit. But I wanted to see what they said being that it was my due date. After waiting for 5 hours they had sent me home with no dilation no nothing. So when we pull up to the hospital around 12 oclock we didn't know what to expect.
They run a few test and say congrats Corey you are having a baby. Really? Have I dilated any. Yeah, 1Cm. OY! I think to myself this is going to be a long night.
We finally get into our room around 4 P.M. after laying there listening to one woman at a time coming in with full on contractions. I mean full on screaming! I looked at Dan and said, Epidural please on the rocks! I asked the nurse what was going on. Oh that one. Well, the baby was crowning. Oh Snap!
(After I heard the cries,I was reallllly was glad I signed up for the epidural.)
A nurse came in and began to give me their run down. They had ordered Petosin and a epidural before I had given the consent to take the medicine. I said, Oh hold up folks. Let's talk this out step by step. I need to be informed of everything you are planning on doing to me tonight. After much discussion I opted for the epidural first so that they could stretch my cervix. They said this would hopefully speed things up. Course though they say epidurals don't slow contractions down but I think they do. We watched the contractions on the monitor go from hellaysha's to null and void.
So the rest of the night I laid there like a tuna waiting for my cervix to dilate. Nada! Finally after several hours we got to 3cm and were stuck there for the rest of the day.
Later on the next night I started noticing that I was feeling contractions. They started off bearable to I had to seriously go to a happy place. (as you can see in the video.) I kept saying why am I feeling contractions. What is up? Um well, the epidural had run out and they didn't monitor it like they should have. Not to mention now they were having problems getting me numb.
I have to say I am not saying all that went on with our anesesologist. Let's just say she had horrible bed side manners. For instance I was having a full on contraction and she said roll over. I said, Please one moment. She said, snipply I don't have time for this. Call me when your ready and storms out of the room. I wanted to cry. Scream, snatch hair all at the same time. Lucky for me I was in to much pain to do much of anything.
Also I had run so long in my laboring that I had several doctors working on me through out the day. So when the Big Kahoona Doctor from my OBGYN Office came in, she was furious! This cathator was put in wrong! Why is she not on antibotics! Nurses were flying around like wild cats as she barked out orders. She was so not messing around. Not to mention a bit tight with me as well.
After Three hours of petosin contractions and a epidural boost that only numbed my feet they finally got me numb. I gained my composure and said to the doctor. Ok So we have almost been laboring for 24 hours here. What are the chances of Eli actually being born naturally? She said, none. I was like what! I began to cry because I knew my worst nightmare had come true. I had given my all and felt as if I was getting no where fast. What was worse was I knew that I couldn't mess around any more that my time was up. So the time had come to face the dreaded C section. I have always been the one to make things work. Just give me time to figure things out and I can get the job done. So when they said, C section I felt like I had totally failed.
What made the whole thing worse was when they finally got me numb so that I could talk strait my body started shaking like I was having a sezuire. I had to stuff a rag in my mouth to keep my teeth from chattering my fillings loose.
Tears rolled down my face as they wheeled me into the operating room. Oh my word,I am going to have to be strapped to a table like Jesus as the hack me open. Lucky for me my mother n law told them not to tie me down. She knew I would have flipped out for sure.
I felt so out of control for the first time. God why was this happening to me. How come I had to have a C section? Lord, I am scared to death. As I laid there a peace fell over me. I knew immediatly I was being prayed for. God reminded me that he had not left my side. That he was going to be there every step of the way. You see I couldn't dilate any more because I have bad birthing hips. No matter how hard I would have pushed he would not have come out. God knew what I was up against but I just had to hold to him in the most scariest of places.
As I laid on the table Dan sat next to me stroking my hair. With his gentle voice he told me how proud he was of me. That we were making the right choice. Seriously the proceedure took all of 15 minutes once they got started.
Sweet Dan would peek his head up over the curtain and tell me what he could see. Finally Dan exclaimed Corey, I can see him! I can see him! Tears of joy were litterly squirting out of my eyes! He is almost here! My little boy that I have been waiting so long to hold is almost in my line of sight.
Dan pats me and says I will be right back. I said, go don't leave his side. So Dan darts off with the his little chinese tourist with his video camera. He kept calling back to me telling me every detail of our new little son. Oh Corey he exclaimed, He is so beautiful.. Corey he has brown hair! Corey, our son has my eyes!
For some strange reason I begin to sing you are my sunshine like a drunk on the table but it seems to make Eli stop crying. He grows even quieter and then I see why. Dan was standing over me with a tiny bundle. All I could see was the side of his tiny little face. So I reach up with my shaky and brush my finger across his cheek. Praise God for such an amazing little boy! Eli is finally here.
After they get me stitched up they roll me over to another room where they run all kinds of test on Eli to make sure he is O.K. A few cries were heard from across the room as they measure his body and check his reflexes. Then the moment I have been waiting so desprately was finally here. The chance to hold my son. As my eyes fell down on his face I am completly motionless. Here he is. Finally after 8 years of waiting. He is finally here and in my arms. I am in total awe of how great and mighty our father up in heaven is to us. You are truly a gift of God little one I whisper to him in his ear.
It's hard to imagine three and a halve weeks ago that Eli was still in my tummy. Now I am sitting in my rocking chair listening to the rythmic breathing of sweet Eli as he sleeps in his new bed.
Whether you are a mother or a woman waiting to be a mom. Enjoy every moment of life. Enjoy where God has or is taking you. For every moment of your life is necessary to get you to God's perfect plan. A path to a destiny that is far greater than anything you can imagine.
We waited 8 long years for God to finally take us down this path. Some days were hard. Some days are magical. Now that the game is over I can see why God had me wait so long. If I were to have had Eli any earlier I would have failed so many testings and this whole pregnancy would have been misrable. I know I would have resented little Eli.
You see God had to put people and circumstances into my life to chip the old rough edges off of me. Like a rock in a river tumbling over other sharp rocks. So do not grow weary of your testings. For your testings will give you great joy when you look back and see how far you have truly come. I just wonder what God has in store for me in the years to come. Personally I think I look pretty smooth for a rock God.. ((:
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